When 2017 rolled around this year I was taken over by this enthusiasm that surprised old couch potato me….. this is my year, I can do it, watch me go….. Hey Everyone I’m on a mission….

Of course that lasted for about a month…. the usual time for resolutions made in haste or when blasted on bubbly wine and treats!

And we all know what comes next……. disappointment, anger, sadness and the ever wonderful self sabotage followed by guilt and shame….. oh look another 10lbs.

I often see people who are fat (calling it as it is!) who claim they are happy, satisfied and not struggling…. how can that be…. I am so unhappy…. why???

point form…

1. I hurt…. my knees, my back etc etc….
2. I can’t buy the off the rack clothes I want….
3. I am tired all the time
4. Doing anything takes so much effort
5. I sweat all the time
6. I am conscious of my judgement on myself ….
7. I feel everyone is judging me….
8. Shame and embarrassment

I could go on but you get it…

I have spent countless hundreds of dollars on weight-loss schemes/diets/books and gym memberships all to end up here…. 225lbs.

I have to say that of every diet I have tried Weightwatchers was the only one that I lost any weight on…. that though was before children and was only 20lbs….. and every time I have paid to do it again I fail….. and when I fail I fail with gusto….. and many extra pounds!

So I started researching and reflecting.

the first thing I need to do is hold myself accountable…. for my choices and how I present myself to the world…. so let the choices begin….

My first choice is to reduce the amount of sugar in my diet…..